mint and pine

holly jolly,
all is calm all is bright.
do you hear what i hear?
snowflakes that melt on your nose and eyelashes.

i'm so ready for christmas break.

today in advanced drawing seminar, i snapped.
we had a surprise progress critique and for some reason as i was explaining that i unknowingly purchased 5 sheets of the wrong paper to finish up my drawings, i felt pinpricks at the back of my eyeballs. i tried to hide it but the floodgates opened. a sob escaped. i don't know where it came from but as hard as i tried i could not stop the onslaught of tears and had to excuse myself. gosh. and wow so awkward.

maybe it had to do with the fact that i had stayed in the studio until 4 am working on a stupid drawing which everyone loved but made no difference to me. or that the due date for our final was pushed up a week to next wednesday. or maybe because i have 38 pieces to glaze for ceramics by monday. and a video to edit for a lit presentation tuesday. or maybe it's because i just want to be done with this so-called education, get a real design job, and marry my best friend who is also the man of my dreams. just maybe.

fortunately i just finished my final paper/presentation for ceramics... one less thing to worry about. did you know the navajo indians poured hot liquid pine sap on their pottery for a dark brown, pine-scented resin finish? it's true.